best birthday ever

helloooo,
so monday clinic went really good.
they said my xray was even better then when I left hospital. My bronch came back growing nothing...thats right, i am growing NOTHING in my lungs...for right now, nata thing. Its been 22 years not growing bacteria. hello world, its nice to not be growing anything. the only thing was my kidneys are not functioning correctly so on this monday we will see if those levels have come back down...they think its from the tac levels, an anti rejection drug.

I started exercise this week. it is sooo hard with my weak thigh muscles, I already fell in the room once this week, and my cousin had to lift me off the floor haha....hoy boy.
but ive had some real good mile stones this week....i showered, went on my side,(so far ive only been able to lay on my back, i still lay on my side, saying ouch ouch ouch ouch the whole time, but i bet its good to practise...) and went on the treadmill....AND got up from the edge of the couch without the assistance of my arms. I also went down to the courtyard. Makin improvements....just have to keep pushing, mind over matter. walk walk walk walk all the time so I can start walking normally...haha

I think my brain is starting to feel less alien too (although it is still soo weird feeling) ...since i even thought about going back home home home this weekend. i saw a photo of my cat and got incredibly homesick.

the fashion show is less then two weeks away! i cant wait to see it all go down. (theyre doing a live feed, so if you cant make the actual event, you can see it online!) you girls are doing an awesome job! wish i could be there live...but 300 people...im not suppose to be out in public places where i dont know the cold or germ situation....next year next year

its funny i started a journal each day so i could write down exactly what i did, to know the improvements snice its so hard for me to tell, and write down my moods, and yesterday was such a bad day...today is way different. ups and downs. i hope soon i willl start reading books again. i think i will, cause ive been thinking about it a lot...i have found that when i start thinking about things a week or two later i start to do them....if that makes sense...like i remember in the ICU i did not want my blackberry very often...the drugs messed me up and i just had no desire, but know it goes with me everywhere, and is back to normal, i also used to not want to talk on the phone, and now i am slowly anwsering and talking more on my phone....sooo everything will come in time...6 weeks on monday. Just have to pass the time for the next little while. but i think taking it one day at a time filled with visitors, so i dont get bored or depressed is key...followed by forcing myself to do all the hard stuff, like no matter how much i dont want to go for that walk...get up get up and just do it............
wow biggest rant ever ahahah...sooon ill be me again, i just have to patient.
ps did i mention i am going to have THE best 23rd birthday EVER....its in december....AND ill have new lungs (and hopefully no more alien feeling and able to walk normally? hah) and be all fixed up by then....chya...cant wait!